Raising Difficult Child

I'm in a dillemma sometimes. I was a good son because I did not give heartheache to my parents and yet today that I'm a parent myself, I have a 12-year old son who is hard to control. I envy sometimes parents who are irresponsible but have easy to control children.

My son is intelligent I know. But giving him instruction as part of his discipline seems to fell in deaf ears. Usually at the minimum I give five to ten instructions plus threats sometimes to make him follow.

Sometimes out of my anger I boxed him which made me feel sorry because I had already attended seminars against corporal punishment. But what can I do? Sometimes he teased his two younger sisters until they cried so, I applied physical force to make him stop.

Advices have short term effect on him. Usually he ignore them.

Few days ago I boxed him again when I heard him cursing his mother. My heart is aching sometimes when I think I have a difficult son to guide.

But sometimes I rationalize also that there is still hope that my son would change his attitude from bad to good. Then I also contemplate that this is is the risk of parenting. I chose this vocation so I must prepare for the worst.