Mid Life Crisis
Probably I'm experiencing now what others say as mid life crisis. This is a condition where sometimes you feel you're not interested to what you're doing. Tasteless as they say. Boredom is another word to describe what I feel. Nevertheless, I thank it's only temporary and manageable otherwise depression may set in and it's difficult to control it.
The search for meaning in life is another condition that you can feel during this stage. You would say to yourself, hey I'm 47 now. What I have done to the world?Is there a significant to what I'm doing now?
The longing of man to have a legacy for future generation is really innate to all of us. In my case, I'm also dreaming that my life is meaningful not only for myself and family but for others too. There is really a longing deep inside us to announce to the world that we once step on this planet and we want to leave proof for people to remember us. As we increase our age, we become frantic that time flies so fast and yet it seems that we did not achieve more for people to appreciate.
This is probably what Maslow says as self-actualization. I'm in searched of the moment that I could say to myself, ah I have nothing to ask in life. I'm at peace with myself.
But today, I think I have still a lot to do with my life. The thought of this sometimes gives me sadness. Time is short and the tasks to achieve are great. How can I finish all my task?
I'm fully aware that life is a continuing struggle everyday. The hardships and obstacles that we encounter give meaning to our life. If everything is easy then could we be happy in achieving our dreams? Most likely we'll also be bored.
I hope that the feeling of midlife crisis is as natural as the air that we breath. I hope that this feeling is really necessary to examine our life for its purpose. Sadness is only temporary. After discovering our real worth in existence, then happiness and fulfillment will follow. I hope I'll find my satisfaction too.
